So Tired…….

I’m sorry I haven’t been around in a while.  I haven’t been feeling particularly inspired to write.  Not that there isn’t a whole lot of material in the world worth writing about, but, I just haven’t been feeling very well.  Really tired.  I think it’s a side effect of the PTSD.

When I finally found my safe haven, I let the walls come down.  Now that the walls are down and my inner dialogue is no longer moving at warp speed like voices on helium, I can hear what they say more easily.  “Ssshhh….it’s okay now.  You need to sleep.  You haven’t slept more than 2 hours a day, for almost 40 years.  It’s okay to take rest now and then.”  If I don’t rest, my body tells me so.  This is the aftermath of trauma.  Feeling like you can sleep for 40 years.  Just like Rip Van Winkle.